Peanut Butter Cup turned 5 months old yesterday, and I am still in a state of disbelief that it has already been
nearly half a year since he arrived and changed our lives forever. How has the time gone by so quickly? I don't think it would be as hard to believe if it had only been 3 months -- but
five? That means we are only about a month away before I feel okay about beginning to introduce some solids into his diet. At the risk of sounding repetitive, I am astounded that we are almost to that point. The introduction of solid foods is a HUGE milestone to me and to be so close to it is almost unnerving in a way. Besides, it still seems like it was just last week when he started letting us know that he was VERY interested in trying the foods Mommy and Daddy were eating (when he was just over two months old), and I was telling him,
"I know you want this Sweetie, but you have to wait for about another 3 1/2 months."
I think the upcoming solid food milestone coupled with the fact that he will be a year old in seven months instead of ten is what has hit me the hardest since yesterday. My little baby is well on his way to being a toddler, and while I know that particular milestone is still a little ways off it is fast approaching the horizon and will soon be in sight. Each passing day brings it closer and closer while I am powerless to stop it's approach. No one ever prepared me for the bitter-sweetness of watching my precious baby grow and change. The song,
"In My Arms" by Plumb (see lyrics below and
listen to it here) never fails to bring tears to my eyes because it is
so very true.
Your baby blues, So full of wonder
Your Curly Que's, Your contagious smile
And as I watch, You start to grow up
All I can do is hold you tight, Knowing
Clouds will rage in
Storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash all around
But you will be safe in my arms
Story books, Are full of fairy-tales
Of kings and queens, And the bluest skies
My heart is torn just in knowing
You'll someday see, The truth for lies
When the
Clouds will rage in
Storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash all around
But you will be safe in my arms
Castles they might crumble
Dreams may not come true
Cause you are never all alone
Cause I will always
Always love you
Hey I
Hey I
Will always love you
Clouds will rage in
Storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash all around
But you will be safe in my arms
In my arms
I'm sorry if this post is ridiculously sentimental...that's what happens when your baby starts growing up on you -- you become ridiculously sentimental, or at least, I DO. Ha ha! :)
Moving on to a less sentimental topic and on to one that has caused some frustration the past few days....
Since Peanut Butter Cup has become quite proficient at rolling over, he has been rolling over at night and trying to sleep on his tummy instead of his back now. This I wouldn't mind so much as he has good head control and can prop himself up on his arms and move around, but up until a few nights ago we were still swaddling him as it helped him to sleep better. Obviously, when he rolled over while he was swaddled he didn't have the same range of motion as he would if he was not swaddled. With that in mind, about four nights ago I decided to try him in his sleep sack after one of the night feedings and see how he would do and thereby begin to get him adjusted to sleeping without the swaddler. He stayed asleep when I put him back down in his crib, but about 40 minutes later he woke up and was fussing as he rolled around in the crib. After that I re-swaddled him after feeding and changing him again as it seemed like that was the only way to help him go back to sleep. After talking to my mom the next day and her encouraging me to just work through all of the frequent wake-ups for a few nights while he adjusts to not being swaddled and being 'free', I hesitantly decided to go ahead and work on it over the weekend. The first night Peanut Butter Cup woke up A LOT (and he tried to sleep on his face once too!). The second night I decided I was going to try putting him in a onesie instead of the sleep sack so he wouldn't get it twisted around his legs if he rolled around a lot again. I forgot initially so I ended up changing him to the onesie after he woke up the first time. He woke up more than usual again, would fall asleep nursing and then as soon as I would set him down he would roll over thereby waking himself up again and start to fuss. I tried rubbing his back, singing our special lullaby, keeping my hands on him, letting him hold my hand -- all to no avail (except for one time when he fell back to sleep for about 40 minutes after I rubbed his back for a few minutes). After a few minutes of him working himself up and me realizing he wasn't going to go back to sleep, but was just going to keep fussing and rolling around the crib I'd pick him up, nurse him, and then try again. At one point last night it took four tries over a period of an hour before he went back to sleep after being set down.
So far tonight, we are working on attempt #3...here goes....
Well, that was a no-go...I tried for twenty minutes, without success. I think the worst thing about this besides the lack of sleep for Peanut Butter Cup and myself is that we had finally gotten bedtime established as being between 8:30 and 9:00 (but tonight for example, it's nearly 10:30 and he isn't in bed yet -- and my first try at setting him down was right around 8:30). I'm at a loss...any thoughts or advice are welcome (besides "letting him cry it out" as recent research has shown that method does more harm than good, and I am just not comfortable with it. Period. End of story. I'm sorry if that offends anyone, but I'm tired of having my method of parenting criticized -- along with all of the reading and research I've done being called into question...I can assure you it has been extensive).
Anyhow...this post has become a lot longer than I originally intended it to be, so I guess I should end it before it gets any longer and I bore you to death (that is, if you've even made it this far! Ha ha!).
Goodnight Everyone!